I feel like I somehow knew I would be living like this too. barely gonna be able to make rent each month but will have an extra day a week off to work on things, creative things that make my mind a safe and productive place to be.

walked to work for the first time today, bosses were away so it was super laid back, made pizza from scratch with a pizza stone, drank a beer and tried to work on some songs.

chatted with bart about making things and needing to work harder on my music. I said he was the authority for me on matters such as those. he said “as you are mine captain!”

listened to this will destroy you and did a couple yoga poses, got very high, made myself a black bean quesadilla, heard three different sirens pass by my window, shut the door of my new room in my new apartment and crawled in bed.

realized that I remembered as a little kid imagining being “grown up with my own apartment in ~charles village~” and now I’m a grown up with my own apartment in ~charles village~.

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I hate stoner culture but gd, I got a mflb and it’s the cutest / coolest little thing.

Because we don’t speak about sex, there is no socially acceptable language surrounding it. So the language of porn has jumped in to fill that space, and that’s an issue, because in a male-dominated industry the language of porn is all too often male-generated. The person who coined the term “finger blasting” didn’t have a vagina. The person who coined the term, “getting your ass railed” never got their ass railed. Pounding, hammering, banging… And language matters, because when the only language you have available is abusive and one-directional, in terms of having things done to you, it creates a very weird view of how sex works.